Showing posts with label Injury. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Injury. Show all posts

Thursday, December 17, 2009

We could have died

I have this pain in my left shoulder. It's been a couple days now. It was really hard to get to sleep last night. When I finally did...

I was in a packed van. I knew everyone from various places with the exception of one small boy. He was sitting in the far back with Dom, another child. SN was watching over them. The middle seat had NESF, MNom, DH and Ton. I was riding shotgun. Devid was driving.

We were cruising down the road to go check out a new deposit of antiques. It wasn't long before sirens came up behind us. "I think we're getting pulled over," Devid said. "I can't let that happen," Ton replied, leaned out the window and opened fire. Everyone was caught off guard. There was screaming and chaos as one of the bullets took out the front tire of the cop car. It spiraled uncontrollably behind us as we sped down the road.

"What the hell was that!" "Don't you know there are children in this car!" "Are you insane!?" Finally Ton spoke, "I'm not going back to jail. If they pull us over we're all going to jail." We were now fugitives and everyone accepted that fact easily.

This didn't stop us from our previous mission. We made our way to a spot under the Ballard Bridge. The whole area was piled with various tables, lamps, sofa and other furniture. There was some discussion about the era from which a certain piece originated. Lots of talk about what would look best where. None of it mattered. I was continually looking over my shoulder expecting a swat raid.

A few pieces of furniture were selected and loaded into the back of the van. We were loading everyone up when we realized the children were missing. We divided up to find them. I went down near the waters edge to find they were in the middle of the canal on some sort of metal disc.

Another disc was near the shore that I used to reach them. When I got us all on the same platform the water seemed to crystalize into razors. Large sharks were swarming around piranhas. "Stay close to me." The disc began rising and sinking slightly, causing our surface area to diminish. The children were crying and each had a death crip on my shirt. I successfully navigated the disc back to the shore and the water returned to it's usually tranquility.

"We need to find a place to lay low for a while." Ton directed us to Renton. We came upon a shanty with the title "Adam's" on the sign. I'd never seen a place like it before. The walls were crumbling and the lights occasionally shot sparks. We sat down at a series of tables and ordered a round of drinks, "virgin for the minors". A large poker table was brought out and it was explained that we would have to play to pay off the debt for the gun used earlier. We were only a few hands in when an old girl friend of mine showed up with a group of rather large men. They wanted to play pool but the poker table was blocking the pool table. She began screaming. "You guys this might be bad, that's my ex-girlfriend." One of the men grabbed the edge of the table and chucked it across the room, chips flying everywhere. "This scene is spent we need to go." There was a lot of confusion as we all tried to get out. "We have to go back and pay the tab!" "After all of this you're concerned about a bar tab?" "We can't burn this bridge we'll need these people again." I rushed back in and paid the tab quickly, narrowly avoiding a barstool to the head.

We ended up at a house similar to what I imagine Brooklyn row houses to look like. Everyone was on edge and each of the windows was manned by someone with a gun. Suddenly my ex arrives in a vehicle with a friend of hers. They'd come to return the SN's purse that they'd stolen. As I'm walking out to talk with them I turn to DH and say, "I want a red dot on her head until she leaves."

I went down to talk to them. Her friend says that they're sorry and the money and key rings are gone. I looked in the purse. There were many keys and key chains floating about. My ex then leaves her friend standing on the stairs as she tears off. We discuss how screwed up the whole scene was. Some time passed and my ex showed up again. Her friend jumped into the car immediately. As they were getting ready to drive away my old girl pulled a gun from her lap, "you've had your chance." Before she was able to fire a shot came from the house behind me. She was hit right in the hand, which caused her to drop the gun and hit the gas pedal. I turned around to see Devid with a shot gun smiling from the top floor window. I gave him a salute and went inside.

We decided that we had to go back to "Adam's". We drove past the building 3 or 4 times, sizing up the scene, before deciding to head in. We pulled around back to park by the pier. There was a group of people down a small alley. "We aren't ready to meet them yet. Best to avoid em for now." "Meet who?"

The parking lot was nearly empty but there was still a man directing traffic. His neck arched up and to the left, his eyes to the moon. His face was a festering green and he wrecked of rotting flesh. Zombies.

He approached the van asking for a fee. SN grabs a gun from under her seat and blasts him right in the head. The children start screaming as she begins to wipe the goo from their faces. "I ain't paying that thing." People start pouring out of "Adam's". As soon as they realize that we were the same people involved in trashing the place earlier any glimpse of tolerance was gone. They each had some form of very large gun within arms reach and suddenly we realized that this wasn't a standard gun fight, but more a display of high powered artillery. Rockets exploded all around us. I could hear the clankering of metal and concrete as grenades rolled into view. Flames engulfed the view in the rearview as the owner of the establishment ignited the end of a long wand connected to a tank of gasoline strapped to his back.

I remember looking over to Devid in the drivers seat. "This is way too hot for me." And he peeled out. The smell of burning rubber overpowering the rest of the carnage.
As soon as it seemed like the worst was behind us I lit a cigarette and looked back, "Is anyone dead?" The young boy was the first to reply, "We could have died?"

Thursday, July 23, 2009

The saint nobody has heard of

I'm going to live. Turns out the pain in my foot is most likely a result of having broken my foot and then redistributing my weight more to the left foot. I don't know. I just want to be able to walk...

I dreamed I was on the Island last night. I'm not sure what was happening there. I was on a table. People were all around me working. I don't remember anything else. Maybe I shouldn't watch Lost right before I go to sleep. But it's so good I can't stop myself...

There is a line in an Of Montreal song that I think about often. "And through many dreadful nights / I lay praying to a saint that nobody has heard of." I feel this way a lot. I've been thinking more about the intricacies of the divine lately. I haven't come to any new conclusions. I just want an undeniable truth, but the more I search the more blurred it all becomes. I guess it just means that I have more to learn. With every frustration, every misguided attempt, every error or success, I just have to remember that I'm getting closer to finding my absolute. I have to believe that if it were easy it wouldn't be as rewarding...

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

It is happening again

Well not exactly like before. There's no pick ax this time. About 9 o'clock last night my left foot started to hurt (I broke my right foot). So I grabbed an ice pack, strapped it on and tried to sleep. As the night continued the pain grew along with the size of my foot. I woke up and could hardly walk. The worst part is that I have no idea what I might have done to it. I was fine yesterday. No problems walking home from the bus after work even. All I did last night was lay in bed and watch Lost. I'm going to the doctor today. Hopefully it's nothing and goes away quickly. My coworkers have me a little concerned about spiders though. I don't want to loose my foot because some little bug needed a meal or worse a place to incubate their young. Argh, I just need to stop thinking about it...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Burn the boot!

Its been 8 long weeks since my escapade with the pick axe. Thinking back i remember the horrors of the ER with blood pooling beneath my bed and the hours of waiting to go into surgery. The mindless days spent playing video games and gobbling up percoset. The struggle of moving on crutches and the extra weight of the boot. However today it's all over. I'd like to say to both the boot and the axe, "fuck you, i never want to see either of you again. You can both burn in hell." now on to summer, who wants to go camping?
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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Walking around like a walker

I got rid of the damn crutches!!! I can't possible express how happy I am about this. I can walk without having to prop myself up! They also told me that in the next 2-3 weeks I'll be able to wear my own shoes again and ditch the boot all together. I can't wait...

Handsome Furs (Dan Boeckner of Wolf Parade and his wife) is playing Neumos a week from friday. Anyone who is interested in going should hit me up...

I'm a little torn about the 4th of July. For the last couple years I've gone to a friends house down on Alki which is always a blast. The only problem is getting back. It was much easier when I lived in W Seattle. So I'm thinking about just doing something at my place. Beer, bbq and blowing stuff up, you know, 4th of July...

I guess that I'll leave you with another preview of the project I'm working on. I'm going to post it all as a complete work once I have it to the point I like it. But I figure this way you'll get to see some variations:

Shrouded by hoods Abraham and Hagar discuss the finer intricacies of deism and it's place in modern society. Lady Madonna sits open legged reading a guide to Dungeons and Dragons. Her socks extend to the depths beneath her dress, striped in colors with no particular pattern. Suddenly Urban II proclaims, "Ain't no one better than Jesus! Ain't no one do you like Jesus!" He then spills a tall can of malt liquor trying to pull out a world map. Madonna's children are crying but she can't hear them. Abe has had enough and pulls the cord.




By the way, whatever happened with swine flu? Are we still all going to die?

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Short and sweet

I'm trying to wrap up another draft of my 7 project so I'm not going to blog too much today. Just a couple quick things...

Will future generations justify calling us barbarians because of our use of fossil fuels or because of our lack of social consciousness?...

I need to apologize to my dad. I guess after my surgery I made a pretty harsh statement that I don't remember. I didn't mean it. You've been awesome. I don't know how I'd have made it through all of this with out ya...

Monday, May 25, 2009

Memorial day without the mayhem

It's a holiday. The sun is shining. If you want to bbq come over to my house. I want to eat copious amounts of animal flesh and drink buckets of beer...

The injury is healing nicely if I have to say so myself. It's been about a week since I've had to take any pain killers. And I'm only using the crutches when I leave the house. Tomorrow the doctor should tell me that I can ditch the sticks all together. I can't wait...

As you all can probably guess from recent posts, I've developed a sort of obsession with Deerhunter. I went through their blog and downloaded all kinds of stuff. It's all that I've listened to this weekend. It has a way of making me feel very human while still completely detached from the world. I guess that's how I've been feeling a lot lately. It's been inspiring me to write though...

I made some pasta salad last night at midnight. I'm not sure why. I guess I didn't realize what time it was when I started. I even made the dressing from scratch. It has bacon and egg and peppers. I hope it's good. When I tried it last night I decided it should chill before I give it a final verdict...

I ate so many swedish fish last night that I thought I was going to puke. But it was soooo good...

I'm starting to make some decent progress on this 7 project I've been working on. Had a meeting last week and it totally changed my prospective on the whole thing. Here's another little teaser:

St. Christopher sits behind the wheel, slightly hunched, asks for the fare. His facial features and skin tone seem to change as if a cameleon gone into shock. He admires them all, then pretends like they were never there, as he continues to constantly watch them. The Vicario brothers board in a frenzy. Behind their eyes its apparent they haven't slept or eaten in days. Pedro can't stop tapping his foot, a beat resembling the national anthem. Pablo is picking the moles from his forearm with a knife he unwrapped from a newspaper. Pedro's arms jet up from stillness, fingers pointing forward as if to sign some great event. His satchel falls scattering watches, tobacco and a variety of hot sauces all across the ribbed floor. He attempts to sell a watch to a Korean immigrant before collapsing into sleep.

Hopefully I'll be able to get the rest of what's in my head adequately expressed within the confines of words. I just have to have faith in myself, which seems to be growing every day...

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I'd rather not have the drugs

I really hate being crippled right now. I want nothing more than to go to the ocean and with the upcoming holiday I have the opportunity to do that or go camping or doing a wide array of things outside of my urban confines. Unfortunately I can't. Everyone thinks that being injured is great. "Oh you get all kinds of fun drugs though!" I for one never really understood the "fun" in pain medication. I'd rather be healthy and out having fun than sitting at home doped out of my mind. This is just really depressing...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Rainy day in May

The healing process is in full effect. The only down side is now I have lots of dead skin and calluses falling off. I think that the best way to deal with it is to get a pedicure. I've never had one. I wonder if my doctor would allow it...

I have a bunch of new music to listen to. It's pleasing me greatly. I got it all last week from a friend. The first thing I dove into was Cryptograms from Deerhunter. I almost forgot about everything else...

Speaking of deer, I'm going through some serious Buck Hunter withdrawals. Dangerous Hunts doesn't even compare. So I've been playing Trauma Center on my wii. Love that game. You have to perform surgeries and reconstruct bone and such...

I have no idea what I'm doing for the holiday yet. I think I'm going to have a BBQ with my family at some point (details are still sketchy). And I'm probably going to do something with Matty Ice. Maybe go to Boundary Bay or something like that. I have the whole house to myself so I might through a kegger for the peeps left in the city for the holiday. I will say though, keggers aren't quite the same when you have beer on tap at all times...

I need to find more guest bloggers. If anyone is interested in submitting something to the blog send me an email at desolatesorrows@gmail.com. As long as it's somewhat relevant to the subject matter of the blog (which as you can see is very loosely defined) I'll post it...

I had a dream a few night ago. Over the past few days bits and pieces have been coming back to me about it. It began in Magnolia. I was under an overpass in a very industrial area. I was following an animal which may have been Urban Phantom, but I'm not sure. As I wandered further I ended up at a street carnival. There were booths lining the streets and lights strung all overhead. It wasn't long before I realized that the carnival was full of whores. Nothing but whores. But none of them were "working". It was almost like a convention. At one point I went up to a ticket booth to make some purchases and have some photos developed. They told me that the photos would take 30 days to develop. That's all I remember, so far. Usually I can remember most of my dream and what I don't is lost forever. Its a very strange sensation with this one. Little things in my day lead to massive feelings of deja vu...

The coffee is lack luster today. But I guess that it is everyday...

I'll leave you with this..

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Đó là vô nghia

I just learned that I'm not a part of Generation Y, now I'm in the Millennial Generation. I guess it makes sense. I never really cared to be labeled a Y. However this comes from an article that I was reading about the emergence of Millennial voters and what will be their lasting impact on American politics. Pretty interesting stuff...

I've forgotten to mention to you all that we (*upon reading this again I'm not sure why I said "we" and not "I" but instead of editing it have chosen to just add this little bit of filler*) have a new address. To make it easier for everyone you can find me at www.desomnia.com now. Some guy already had desomniac.com. Not exactly sure why he has it. I might have to pressure him out of it...

I finally was able to wash my foot. The skin peeled off in large chunks that I considered keeping in order to make a life sized mold of my foot. Then I decided that was nasty...

I'm going to see Wolverine tonight. I loved the X-men movies, so I'm hoping this is just as good. I haven't been to a movie theater in a long time. I think that the last thing I saw was the Simpson's movie. Hopefully nothing has changed too drastically...

I really need to do more writing. I have this horrible habit of starting a project, getting really excited about it, and then letting it just fizzle out. I don't know why. I guess that I need to work more on my follow through. So since I never finish anything I'll throw out another excerpt. This is from the project that I was doing about the 7:

A young mother sits facing center
A book of Vietnamese characters lays open on her lap
As she tries to teach her child what they all mean.
“You need to teach them English!”
An elderly woman, who could be her aunt, yells
“They won’t go nowhere here without English!”
The child replies, “Đó là vô nghia”

I hope that I got my Vietnamese translation right. But if I didn't would you know the difference? I might post something else for you later. I ran across this story that I wrote like 10 years ago. Could be fun...

If you haven't checked out the recent post on indoorsprout.com you should. There is some great pics of the garden's progress...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Too many thoughts

I feel older everyday. I understand that I get older everyday, but I'm not sure at what point I became fully aware of this. At what point did the little things start to build up to the point that they now reveal my aging? Is there some event that occurred or is it that I just have more time to think about such things? I'm starting to think that it may have to do with knowledge. The more you know, the older you feel. I kind of like that...

It's completely acceptable to be different...

Every time that I've tried to get coffee today something has gone wrong. Maybe I'll try again. Maybe I'll quit trying. No. I'll try again. Failure isn't an option...

We're supposed to have thunder storms today. I hope so. There is something about them I've always loved. It might be the electricity in the air. Maybe the raw power put on display for all to see and fear. Actually, its probably the rain...

I need to make it to the SAM. I haven't been to see the new exhibit yet. I'm debating whether or not its a good idea to go with the broken foot. I really want to go though. To go back to an earlier thought: would going to the art museum make me feel older? Or does art not count? Art usually makes me feel younger for some reason, so I don't think it counts...

I'm going into the doctor today. They're supposed to take out the stitches. I'm really hoping that means I can put my whole body in the shower while I bath. It's not the easiest to do with one foot out. I've found it easier to wash myself with a rag on a stick, but it makes me feel like a invalid...

The Flaming Lips are working on a double album. I'm so excited that I have wet myself more times than I can count. Pitchfork has a blurb about it here. The best news was the inspirations, "thinking Beatles White Album, Zeppelin's Physical Graffiti and even some of the longer things that the Clash have done". I can't wait. Damn. I just wet myself again...

Trade Show is this weekend. I'm not really looking forward to it. Its the only weekend that I have to work. I wish I didn't have to...

I'd rather be in the woods. Preferably near the ocean. Somewhere like Forks. I love Forks. When I get old I think that's where you'll find me. Tucked away in a little cove along the coast. Looking out across the angry blue expanse and up into the chaotic crossing of evergreens. At this point I'd even settle for this...




I forgot to mention, I finally got some coffee..

Monday, May 11, 2009

Morning rant

This morning I learned that giraffes are in the same grouping as cattle and deer. They also have the same number of neck bones as you and I, just much much larger. I really think that giraffes are neat. Maybe I'll start doing a regular feature on them. Then again maybe as soon as I finish this I'll never mention them again...

I was supposed to go bowling tonight. I've had it planned for like 8 weeks. The whole time I was thinking, "Why are we planning this out so far in advance?" Turns out it was foolish to plan so far out as its no longer an option with my foot. The closest thing that I could think of that I can still do is Wii Bowling, which we might do. It's pretty fun...

Speaking of the foot, it's doing well, I think. Tomorrow I have an appointment to get the stitches removed and I'm hoping that all is well. I get this bad feeling that I broke open a stitch at some point. It could also just be the natural healing process, but I'm not sure. At this point my biggest fear is that something is going to go horribly wrong and I'll have to go back in for surgery and start again at square one. Let's hope that's not the case...

Craigslist prostitution is a hot button issue there days. I had a feeling it was only a matter of time....

David got me a shirt with corn on it. I love it...

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

An Old Familiar Place

Back at work today. It's been two and half weeks since I've been here. It's just as I remembered it. Nothing has changed. Well one thing changed. Both of my speakers are facing David. I just noticed that now. Hold on a sec...okay all is well, he never even used them...

SWINE FLU!!!! I hope that all of you are aware of H1N1 (aka Swine Flu). But at this point I'm not sure how you couldn't be. A lot of people are saying that this is getting blown out of proportion but I disagree. If they make a huge deal about this and it ends up fizzling they're going to take heat for over exaggerating the threat. But if they don't say enough and it turns into a full blown pandemic (ie 12 Monkeys) everyone is going to say they could have stopped it. So in the end I know it's obnoxious to hear about it all the time but it's better that dying a horrible death that could have been prevented. (That's what we have climate change for anyways)...

My apologies to the category winners of the Chili Cook Off, I haven't made the aprons up yet. I will be doing it in the near future...

I can't type very fast right now. I'm at about half speed. It's really irritating, so I think I'm going to stop this...

Thursday, April 30, 2009

It's been so long...

It's been a while. I haven't had much access to a computer lately. Most of you already know, but I broke my foot two weeks ago. I went and drove a pick axe into it. Pretty painful, but things are on the up and up. I had surgery to screw it back together on monday and everything seems positive. If you want to see the xray and see some nonsense my dad's been spitting check it out here (I don't know who that kid is though)...

EAT MORE CHILI!!! Chili Cook Off was great! I hardly remember it from all the pain meds, but I have been reassured by many in attendance that a good time was had by all. Here's how the winners shaped up:

Traditional: David's "Smoke"
Standard: Ray and Jen's "Five Star Mango Mojito"
Vegetarian: Elizabeth's "Mystery Pepper Moli"
Experimental: Nathan's "Ostrichili"

Best in Show: Ray and Jen's "Five Star Mango Mojito"

I want to thank everyone for participating. I think that this year was by far the most competitive cook off to date. The only half assed attempt was my entry, but I had a good excuse...

I wish that I had some bacon right now. Hmmmm, bacon....

I'd like to give a quick nod to Arlen Specter. I know that he only did it to save his political life, but it's brought duly deserved attention to the fact that the Republican party is increasing becoming a regional party that is out of touch with the majority of the county. You all you should check out this article by Sen Olympia Snowe, I think that she hit the nail on the head and I wouldn't be surprised to find that she'll be leaving the republican ranks in the near future...

I love PBS. It's been my go to since I've become secluded and strange...

For my finale I'd like to give some shout outs:

Mickey, you've been awesome. My garden appreciates your liquid love and it's been nice to have some one to talk to at random times.

Elizabeth, afternoon cribbage in the sun was the best. Now I just need to get that tincture stuff from you so I can be up and running by the weekend!

Nathan, You better be ready for some Jeopardy craziness. I'm doing some serious boning... What is the Rhone? I'm also really looking forward to diving back into your fictitious world of fiction.

Rebecca (Sister), If it weren't for you I'd be wallowing in my own filth. My rooom mates are appreciative to I'm sure.

Rebecca, Thanks for cooking! I'm sure if I tried I'd break the new stove and burn down the house. And I don't think either of us will want to be around when Jeremy gets home after that.

Mom, the cookies were great! Thanks for checking in on me.

Lil Bro, Thanks for getting the stuff at the store for me. I was clueless before you came by that day.

David, I'm sorry. I know that you're getting screwed at work. When I get back I'll have to think of something spectacular to make it up to you.

Dad, where do I start? Thank you for the laptop, helping with the insurance forms, taking me to surgery, getting me crossword puzzles...and that's just in the last 4 days. You're so awesome. I really appreciate all of your help.

Mr. Sharp, where would I be without you. Well actually I can tell you. Probably still screaming in agony with a pick ax at my side. Your patience and selflessness has gone to further solidify in my world view why you are one of my favorite people. Thank you.