July 2009 - November 2010

concerned. always seems to leave Queen Anne by cab. concerned but powerless. needs a long vacation far away from everyone. armed with explosives. someones listening in. Earthquake premonitions. stole a cola from the company fridge. this is torture. Inside the city itself the situation was becoming critical as supplies became exhausted and disease started to spread through the congested and physically weaken population. expect the best, accept the worst. we should go to Mars. need to pull myself together. I should find a way out. Leaving Queen Anne and not in a cab for once. big decisions are always hard to make. its all building to something i cant explain - yet. beginning to understand the fine line between fate and free will. into the inferno. all non essential functions have ceased, body going into survival mode. Lakeside. Slept wonderfully till i got stung by a bee. begging for the past. wearing pants, but running late. 4 5 9. Bought a flesh colored Christ that glows in the dark. loves that its raining. everything I touch turns to shit right now. on the way home from what should be home. sensations of digesting glass. I am my own wife. west side. There are many benefits to never saying what you really want to. just the way it is. very pleased with myself. considering life as a diamond trader. back to wishing I could be an asshole. can feel the rain coming. i put cheese in my hood what of it. might start commuting with a flame thrower. starting to think about West Seattle again. it wasn't a rock. The packing has begun. throats a little red, I'd better spray it. Loves that it seems like the past but cant help stressing over the future. in need of an unmonitored outlet. the coffee is very strong. perfect sites. King of the Lepers. I bet Nepal is nice this time of year. 5 days. Just got accused of being a part of the "Establishment". what happened? God bless the rains here in Washington. Goodbye Lucile. it's always a good day when I wake up from a dream that no one has died in. doesn't sell to the public. sometimes the Rhinoceroses wish they were watusis. brain pain. no idea what to do today...guess I'll go feed the fish. I'm ready. extremely volatile. Just started reading Ulysses. Master of the pumpkin. Guy on the bus points at a picture of pumpkins in the paper, turns to me and asks "do we eat this?" I really wish I had a giraffe. am I wrong to do what I do? "yeah sometimes you give me things to deal with and I give them back to you, that's my way of dealing with it". Did you know that January is "National Get A Colonic Month"? in a very strange place. Saturday morning cartoons are strange. nutty nougat - it does exist. Lost in a toy store. Process it. what happened? yes there is such a place, don't you know it's true? Aries wear hats, not to cover for baldness...but because we don't have a tail. Back from mass. Time to take on the Cyclops. Seven, 7 or VII? What do you say in a cover letter to an editor that openly admits to not reading them? Flow. Kickin it woodland style. "Oh, you're calling from the States, aye?" I'm nearly hit by a car everyday without fail one of these times its actually going to happen. if a doctor told me my heart was going to explode and I was going to die, I'd ask for a different doctor. I guess fascism isn't the answer. if you're looking for some semblance of order and reason in Little Saigon you're in the wrong place. might have an addiction to puzzles. are they drinking in the hospital? I really don't understand why people "follow" my twitter account, it's all nonsense. west coast. Saving the duwamish. remember "Ski Free"? damn the post office. oh sweet rejection. What is going on with the Fins? ill give you 2 sheeps and a brick for that ore. I don't recommend eating the house plants - they're poisonous. this morning the 7 smells of stale coffee, buttered popcorn and urine. Well that was surprisingly expensive. "excuse me, are you a brewer?" rush rush rush busy bee busy bee gets the wax and I'm sleeping with the termites. thinking about Julius Ceasar. every door in my apartment was ajar. Gonna play the basketball. So the intense shadow boxing at the bus stop was strange but not nearly as strange as the jumping shadow uppercut that followed. this goes well beyond vampirism. when death call I'm good I got call ID. Peppercorns, say it with me "Peppercorns". I wish it were raining. Cougars are a good thing. I need me a fishing pole. the bathroom smells like bacon. I'm ready. Seattle, oregon coast, redwoods, mt shasta, crater lake, seattle? Getting to white center shouldn't be this difficult. I think it's time to start drinking paint. There's a whole bottle of absinthe at my house and today is testing my will power. Back on land. Um, excuse me, there's something in my teeth. I'm satisfied with that ending. you gotta cook the devil out. Dear Pacific Ocean- good to see you again, it's been far too long. Encountered a bear on the highway. I always love a good shanty. Going to see a big hole filled with water on top of a mountain. "Home" is the most disturbing this I've seen in a long time. I think tomorrow might be the day. I feel naked. Wu-Tang will show me the way. apparently I'm irritable today - nothing personal. Wooden chicken. What do you think a "battle otter" looks like? Onzcwera a ga ina my aklweypboa rtda isa f uzcklwed!!!! I was hoping for skanks. Home turf. Heading to SODO for a little studio time. Infected - the system is down. Off to see Palin. Ugh I feel disgusting. So many butterflies. Kinda thinking my boss might be drunk. Why don't I live on farm yet? Well, here goes nothing. "I'm with the government and I'm here to help you." Wasted attempts to contact the tree have been fruitless. I don't want to be "that guy", I never want to be "that guy". Is frog butter in dairy or hygiene? Wrong turn in richland ended up at hanford. "With a big enough drill you can get through anything". Found the source. No the bar does not come with the apartment, that's mine! One turkey isn't enough. I'm really hoping for tacos.

October 2007-June 2009

waiting for a miracle. fermenting the dream. going to find out what happens when you mix nyquil with sudafed. still drunk from last night. wants another flesh colored Christ that glows in the dark. working out the demons. running from demons. about to cause a scene. waiting for a miracle. ready to drink blood. concerned about the Polar Bears. thinking about moving far far way....again. convinced that being here is some kind of spiritual surrender. waiting for a miracle. smells like hops. walking in line. wants to know everything there is to know about growing cereal grains. can see through time...it doesn't look good. "have you ever realized that no one is better than anyone else in the world, and in the act of realizing it, you feel better than everyone else?" trying to make you late. The terms are interchangeable. stalled trying to shift out of first. eating eggs. starting to feel better. waiting for a miracle. judged by Reckoner. worried. the mob. the walrus. late. angered the volcano and is now feeling the pain. not losing Hope. very pleased. in dire need of Puzzle Fighter. demands a salmon offering!!! somewhere between SDR and RGA. apathetic. 4 foot long salmon. calling on everyone to step up and help your fellow man, don't just look the other way. on the brink. grinding for the children. sandy. connected. waiting for a miracle. by the power of science. saturated with beef. the irresponsible president. industrious. still thinking about stencils. drinking vodka. going in through the mouth. wishes he was mechanized. think about the power stone. discontinued. still recovering. no longer imagining what could have been, but instead realizing what is. about to start throwing boots. securing the area. praying for rain. fed up with the snow. enchanted by the creepy eyes. cannot be free of all of the evils in this town. looking for rainy day women. paying the pizza guy in dimes and nickels. didn't sign up for any of this. speaks with his fists. spending the night with Lucile. preparing for change. knows, somehow, that only when it is dark enough can you see the stars. frostbitten by the fog. post modern. waitin on the 7. going to start buying cottage cheese in larger containers. Not sure why but I've been told to do so, so I will. contains less than 1% juice. never stops. "it's like God took our picture, before he kills us". lost myself. doesn't care if it hurts. mismatched socks. fork + brain = easier? thinking about Antarctica. needs to get an all white suit. judged. unbelievable cynical. God bless the 7. on a road shaped like a figure 8. The Sylvan Screen...if you don't know you should. offended. is. racing pigeons, that is all. where's my honey? uses pig by-products in his designs. solo, but not alone. just fucked himself up bad. seeking medical attention. there should be more pillows at work. might be sleeping with a mouse. suffering from urban overload. all alone and talking to myself. digging it so deep I'm hitting bedrock. west side. pining for days past. cover your eyes. needs to come up with $1K for a suit...I could be the phantom. has dreams that frighten me awake. back where i belong. et cetera, et cetera. celibate. boo guns, yeah dogs! "brains on the wall". do you think that the increased use of the symbol ♥ is a direct result of america's fear of the word love? doesn't talk to terrorists. Heat advisory in effect - vigilante. store was closed, no spikes today - vigilante pending. long like livestock. had a great night and didn't even see the show. had a great night and didn't even see the show. can't decide: seven pennies or two pennies and a nickel. psychologically healthy. will not accept failure as the only option. To=the. can still smell the camp fires. did not speak its name. wearing a lot of brown today. apocalypse dream. I guess that I just don't know. sometimes I guess it's too much to hope for the little things. dripping in apathy. some good times rust others shimmer forever.    uncertain how to move forward. 

I guess it's clear when I stopped waiting for that miracle.

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